“You do anything long enough to escape the habit of living."

I think that one of the hardest lessons in life may possibly be learned and thrive within the confines of a person's understanding of his or her self. Up until yesterday, I thought that I knew who I was, however, I have come to a revelation; not only do I need to understand myself, but also my place in the world. I need to be able to hold and maintain a relationship with the world AND myself. 

From a very young age I have known that I possess a gift. I have an ability to understand others on higher levels. In doing so, I am able to convey messages instilled with guidance and counsel that bring others to peace with themselves. Until this stage of my life, I havent utilized this skill to its full potential. Sure, Ive helped out numerous friends, but I dont want it to end there. I want to touch the lives of others on a larger scale. I want to give back to the environment that has offered and given me so much. 

Last night I stayed up to soul search a bit, and came to the conclusion that I need to take the first step towards this goal; I need to get my life straight and priorities in line. I need to adjust aspects of my lifestyle in order to improve myself. I need to quit doing the things that are slowly harming me. I am bent on this. Im turning over a new leaf. 

This is step one. The constant struggle with my self conscience. Once I overcome my urges and organize my inhibitions, Ill move on to step two. 

There are greener pastures in my future.