“For everything you have missed, you have gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else.”

Its finally set in. This is real. Youre not coming back. I shudder every time that thought crosses my mind. I have to learn to live without; To cope with someone entirely different than you. It scares me to think that I may not be able to accomplish that feat. I am terrified. 

I havent even met you yet, nor had the opportunity to exchange words, but I still feel it necessary to apologize, prior to both of those events. What you dont understand about me as of yet, is that i am a creature of habit; I am not a huge fan of change. Period. Because of this, I feel the need to prematurely apologize. Im sorry for whatever judgements I may make and stereotypes I may file you under. Please understand that these are not my intentions, but run a high risk of becoming reality all the same.