“The old believe everything; the middle aged suspect everything: the young know everything.”

So it's 4:37 AM. I know by the time i finish this entry it will no longer be, but such is life. As a matter of fact, the clock has changed during the process of constructing that last sentence. It's funny how things work out sometimes. There are times in life where I feel like everything is coming together, like everything in my life has some sort or meaning. But then of course there are always inversely proportional days were I wish that i could disappear. Who's to say which is better. We can benefit from both. People have this outstanding ability to turn terrible situations into life lessons that are influential to everyone. Id like to think that Ive had at least a few of those. If not I guess the vast majority of my time spent on this god forsaken planet has been a waste. But then again, who am I to judge? In the grand scheme of things i guess my opinion doesnt really matter anyways. I could be just another voice in a crowd. How would I know otherwise? I havent the slightest idea. Just like I dont have the slightest idea why I am still awake. I finished my assignment circa 3:00 AM. I guess Im not even making much sense to myself at this current stage. Well, this has been, and will continue to be my first actual "all nighter" per say since I have started school here, and I must say, I feel the most productive Ive ever felt in my life. 

Im glad i could capture this essence of time within this blog. I may not have another moment like this for a while. 

And also, in other news, happy birthday JJ. 

Thanks for the shout out last night. That meant more to me than you may ever know. 

"All men should strive, to learn before they die, what they are running from, and to, and why."

Sometimes I wish that I wasnt so damn selfish. 

Im going to miss you. Actually, I have no idea what Im going to do without you here with me. I honestly dont have the slightest idea. But I know that youre doing this for you, because its something you need to do in order to get better, in order to find yourself, in order to become the person you want to be. 

I can only hope that our paths cross later on down the line. 

Nothing in this world could make me happier. 

Nothing.

But because this is what your heart has led you to do, I support you 100%. I will always stand behind you. 

"Believe those who are seeking the truth; doubt those who find it."

I don't know what to do to help you. 

And that kills me. 

“Disability is a matter of perception."

Today my advisor told me that she believes that I have a learning disability. My COM 230 professor agrees with her. They helped me get an appointment in order to get tested. As of yet, Im not quite sure what to think of this situation. Apparently my advisor and professor had a discussion based on my low test scores in comparison to my high essay scores. They believe that there is something hindering me from more successfully completing multiple choice tests. And again, I am not certain wether I agree or disagree at this point in time. Ive always had a rough time with multiple choice tests, even in high school, however, I have never considered it to be a 'disability.' After my meeting with my advisor, my dad called me, so I told him about the situation, He laughed as if it were a joke. He just doesnt understand. But then again, neither do I.

I guess Ill see what happens after my appointment.